The Fears we don’t face become our Limits

I have dreamed of becoming a doctor my entire life, but the road I took to medical school was anything but direct and easy.

I gave up on my dream in 2015 when I could barely make it through my undergrad. I was emotionally exhausted from my childhood PTSD, substance misuse from numbing my trauma, and a life-changing head injury. It was a miracle I even graduated with the accomplishments that I did… and things only got darker from there as I realized that no medical school would accept me in my current shape back then. I felt like I’d ruined everything, my entire future.

I allowed myself to get lost in the art of life and from there I began to discover who I truly was. By 2018, the more I discovered myself and fell into a deeper peace and love for myself and the world around me, the more clear it became that I had to pick myself up and try again. Nothing else called to me like the physician’s path and too many people kept telling me I was made for it.

I was so terrified, I had absolutely no idea if all the money and hours I poured into post-bacc classes and MCAT prep and testing would pay off. I knew all the work I was doing could still end up resulting in one big resounding, stinging rejection and even further misery and rumination.

This is a screenshot of a conversation between me and my best friend that we had the day after I took the MCAT in 2019. It is a memory I will probably cherish and revisit for years to come, because it so perfectly represents these crucial moments that come along in all our journeys…

We are all human. We have all experienced things in our past that make us feel unworthy of a bright and abundant future where our dreams actually can come true… and I’m here to gently remind you, don’t let that stop you. I didn’t let my fears and failures stop me and now it’s 2022, I have a 4.0 in my Master’s program, and I’m accepted and starting medical school in August 🙏🏻

The fears we don’t face become our limits. You can heal 💕